Mental health is a crucial issue to me & something I speak about frequently. I wrote this song while dealing with severe anxiety, depression, and thoughts of suicide last year.
It's my pleasure to share Devil Do a Flip — A story of overcoming my demons.
Time and time, and time I tell my friends
That things are getting better when it is
That I am doing better than I did
Cause I then put the metal to my shit *
[I just made the Devil do a flip]
He's rolling in his coffin cause of it
But I can't solve the problem for the kid **
We're rolling with the metal Pantera
If he's talking war, vendetta
We're coming back strong; whenever
Storm, been through the calm, together ***
Storm been through the calm, together
May my niggas ride forever, dawg
- signed, ibn
*Typically, when they (my friends/family) ask if I'm okay, I'll answer yes, when it's a lie. I've been in a better place lately due to what I overcame. I'm doing better than I was because, at my lowest, I had myself at gunpoint in the mirror.
**Making the Devil "do a flip" is my way of pissing him off for not pulling the trigger even though I was so close. You can't make me sink into your darkness just because you're there. I can't be your selfish resolve.
*** Drawing from the heavy metal band Pantera, "rolling with the metal" is a metaphor for hunting down the Devil with a gun. It's a constant battle, so I have to keep winning. My close friends helped me realize I wasn't alone, so I'll use their support next time these thoughts come rushing in.